err first off, i'm SO SORRY CHRISTINE!!! =*(* sorry sorry sorry. >sighs. next time it'll be more organized. i promise! rafting was fun. but VERY tiring. how the hell do they expect u to finish down the river with 2 damn paddles?! wTF luckily we got a hold of more =D my arms r sore. freakin anderson jumped on our raft & i fell out. haha. the water was freezing & i think we were getting on eachothers nerves. but sa'll good. heehe. driving to sac is not fun either! i cant drive over an hr. i get restless. AND trying to speed up to freeway traffic while you're pulled over is frustrating! but thanks to my coaches jason & kathy =) anyhow, next time amy youre going! & we have to bring waterguns. i am not paying 17 bucks for one. pshh. poor van got a ticket on the way home for going 80!! wtf! i was going 90 there...and jay was going 90-100 home! everyone was speeding. i think it was cuz he was driving tony's car. errrr fuckin cops. bitch asses. anyhow, kathy called in & said i had food poisoning. haha. i have work 2morrow morning too. fuck. i think imma quit soon. errr. 10 days! woot woot =D eww this girl stole a herpes virus from her bio lab @ brown university. nasty. wth is that. ok i should rest now. ttyl lovelies. *mwuahz

hi ya'll. i'm tired. long day. sorta. hMm i slept @ 7:30 in the morning...i have problems. my dad even left for work & julia was like "good morning." hah. anyhow, woke up @ 1 30 to drive my dads gf to work since im using her car for now. went to valley fair so kathy could buy andy's gift. me kathy cathy & andy went to eat TK noodle...hah he had the choice of TK or grand fortune & he chose TK =/. got some tapioca & i actually had a nice conversation with the manager. hes cool. he said he'd hire us if there were openings =) went to andys for cake. went to the tatoo parlor & andy didnt get his tatoo yet since the guy didnt have enough time to sketch his tribal so we left. hmmm chilled @ johns. called up people to go drink but we had no pad so here i am home. plus i dont drink. =) hah jimmys party was funny yesterday. saw some ahem people faded for the first time =) jimmys father was hilarious. "jimmy good boy! be happy everyone! who his girlfriend?" mad laughs huh kim ;) his family seems so happy. his parents are divorced but they all get along with eachother. thats very nice. anyways, hecka peeps got back from their orientations. i haven't heard one complaint... which is good =) im happy for everyone =)i wanna spend time with you girls. =( we say it so much...errrrr thas why i hella want you guys to go to hawaii...i checked some that were 600 for air & hotel. thats not bad. sooo...?? =) 2 weeks left. gotta do it soon. ok my question of the day-- why do people hurt those that they love? they know that they will hurt them...so why do they still choose to do it? >sighs. bye loves

ok time to vent some anger. just a little. ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so amy & kim know. a few others. anyhow, me & jay fell asleep & woke up to a LOUD SCREECHING noise. like a BANG. followed by some others. the alarm goes off & i asked jay if it was his. he went outside & came back and was like "someone hit my car. it's totaled." he was hella calm n shit. i was like WTF & ran outside & saw his car fuckin totaled. i started crying. he called the cops...there were like 15 people outside cuz they heard the noises...these mexican guys told us who did it n that they were down the street. we went to them & jay was mad at first cuz he thought she tried to leave...since her car was freakin far from the accident. so we were kinda givin her attitude...esp. me. damn i was more upset than jay the whole time. anyhow she just told us she fell asleep. she was crying & really sorry so we felt bad. jay was jus making sure she & her bf werent hurt n stuff....she said sorry & jay was all "shit happens, its ok as long as u guys r alright." haha. one of the cops was like "damn im proud of u bro, if that woulda been my car....oh man." haha cuz he was all calm. anyhow the cops did all the info-insurance exchanging n stuff. called the tow truck. his cars gone. thank god no one was seriously hurt. the girl n her bf was hurt a lil but nothin major. i think if we had been in the car...we'd be in the hospital right now. the car moved like 50 feet or so & turned sideways. anyways i told jay to park where he did & there was no car really close to him...& he was thinkin damn my car could easily be side swiped...o well i got insurance. hah damn. crazy. my car was in front of his...a lil further down...if it wasnt his to be hit it woulda been mine most likely. i wish it was mine. i woulda jus started laughing and been like oh shit. so yea, there are some really nice people out there. my neighbors came outside to help & the cops were coo & the tow truck guy was coo. =) anyhow jay went home wid my car. im usin my dads gf's car for now. man jay doesnt need this right now. like he doesnt have anything else to handle?! errrrr such a fuckin hassle. oh well, i guess we should be thankful no one was hurt. thank God. i love him. he always sees the brighter sides of everything. anyhow, im so tired still. ok me go now...talk to ya'll soon =D oh yea! my uncle's ex gf came by the house today to return his videos. chea right! bitch...they were across the street talking. julia, his new gf, asked me to go out there and tell my uncle that my dad wanted to talk to him. lol so i went & i saw that bitch crying in her car n shit. my uncle didnt kno wat to do i guess. haha damn its been YEARS and this was the first time i saw her in person. uGh he has the chance to be happy. she better not ruin it for him...julia is better for him. she actually cares about him. fuckin exes. errr!! ok im done. auf weidersehen! (see ya later in GERMAN) =D

hey sweetpeas =D i'm posting early right now since i'm bored & have nothin 2 do. jay's freakin sleepin on my bed. lazy bum. freakin kiM didnt go today! err...amy i saw midland at tonys party. heehe. i walked outside & he looked at me & was like is that cat? haha & i was like wassup & that was it. he was wid his girl i guess. the party was a nice chill one....jay ate 4 hamburgers & 2 hotdogs & nuggets. hehe. hmmm tony's mom knows my dad. small freakin world. kinda scary...she was like yea your dad showed me a pic of you. haha. jays snoring. grrrr. (>_<) long day mang. i was soo damn tired @ work. too tired to be bitchy too. your bro called amy...he was like hey cat its amys brother (like he always says)...can u put my name down for lien? i was like yea sure, wats ur name?! LOL so out of it. =X came home, sorta slept till 5 & went to tonys. left tonys & went to my cousin's bbq. im pretty sick of bbq. jay ate some more..it was quite amusing =D my cousin was talking to him about her baby, ryan's, circumcision>> sp? haha that was funny. she was in labor for 20 hrs & ended up having a c section =X scary. so yea, i wish you all were goin to hawaii =( go! =D cant i just sneak you guys into my hotel room? u think theyd know? its just me my sis & jay in our room....city view @ sheraton. is that a nice hotel? i cant wait to go snorkeling =D and jet skiing! & we can rent mopeds =D u have to be 18 & have a license. imma be 18 when i go! woot woot. & clubbing...(if you haven't noticed im tryin to get u guys to go) anyways our flight is hella early in the mornin @ sfo to honolulu but we're stayin in waikiki. its so expensive but itll be worth it. its our last vacation 2gether pretty much =( >>sighs. come on ya'll =D anyhow, my brother tommy (stanford one) is gay. i just found out...i cant say im shocked b/c i had a feeling. everyone's supportive. he's so great...sooo his own person such a free spirit...doesnt care what anyone thinks of him...independent, hard working...he's moving to new york next week =( but im happy for him. hes gonna live with his bf...btw his bf is the one who created that whole BUD- WEI -SER (budweiser) froggy thing. hehe coOl huh? =) anyways imma wake jay up...hehe so yea...my question for today is...what would you do if you found out your child was gay? =) bye my babes